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I have not abandoned my blog. Sometimes I feel like I need it to remain sane. I need to get things out without everyone knowing so I'm kinda glad that my friends don't know about my blog or just don't care xD
I have been awfully busy studying for chem and bio exams. This time things need to go right. When I practice the past papers, I always get an almost 6. I mean like 2-3 points from a 6 which is reaaally frustrating cause I NEED that 6 in both the subjects. T_T I am SO not giving in. DAMN IT THOSE 6s ARE MINE!!

Anyways, when I was in Japan, I was contacted by Sutherlands models who wanted to sign me up and I was like "ha! good one!" They found me through facebook and the person who contacted me said that they were finding ppl online now and offering them auditions and such. Sounds reasonable and I asked a whole lot of questions before "trusting" him but idk..anyways, that happened several times and yesterday the same guy who talked to me the first time really wanted me to do at least an audition. I'm thinking why is he so damn eager to get me interested?! I mean, I'm a size 8, I'm 5'8 which is tall enough but there are taller, definitely slimmer AND much model-prettier girls out there. I'm not saying I'm ugly, but I'm aware of the fact that I am not model material. I mentioned this to them but they thought I was fit.. Anyways, I talked to my parents about this and they were very supportive as well and now I'm like wtf?! Believe me, my parents are all about education and they will judo chop any other distractions. I said that I would do the audition which will btw occur via skype from Canada as the main board is located there.
I'm just SO confused. It's just an audition but this is not the first time. But then again, I wouldn't have the dedication needed to be one either because I'd never take it seriously.
I guess things will get more confusing IF they really consider signing me. Oh well. I need to prepare a portfolio by the 24th of this month o.0 ha! portfolio..